This blog begins with what God has been speaking through Oswald Chambers again in his devotions I'm reading.
Sept 4th - I am not my own, but entirely His. Learning to seek Him as much as He seeks me, consciously surrendering ownership of my life, recognizing I belong to Him and asking myself what my life should look like if I am found only in Him. How do get lost in His love/heart while still getting all the practical day to day things done? Finding that the more I get fall in love with Him, the more I see other's through His eyes, the more I fall in love with people and the more I can love myself. The more I love myself the more I take care of my body and do things that are life giving.
Sept 5th - "Watch with Me" ... God is asking me to get on my knees more in partnership with Him for the things that break His heart. To join Jesus in that place of intercession for His lost children. We are so used to God "watching with us" but how often do we leave our place of comfort, or sacrifice some time, to meet Jesus in the Garden and watch with Him? To be there not with our shopping list or to receive anything from Him but rather to give back. I recognize that this doesn't come right away in a person's walk with Christ, and it takes a certain maturity in our spiritual walk to be able to sacrifice ourselves in this way without any concern for ourselves, but rather His kingdom. I've known for a long time that He has called me this but I was not in a place before to answer this specific call of "watch with me" ... on a regular basis. I didn't feel ready. I feel He has brought me to that place and has fully equipped me to join Him in this place. I am ready. This is the new and exciting challenge I am going to take on. Even more, it is a joy and honour that my Lord asks me to join Him... indeed, He invites me in to Gethsemane to that secret place of warring, the Spirit groaning through us, the strongholds being destroyed and His kingdom established. First in me, then the world around me. It all has to come out of intimacy with Him, this I am continually reminding myself of.
Sept 6th - Rivers of living water.
"A river is victoriously persistent, it overcomes all barriers. For a while it goes steadily on its course, then it comes to an obstacle and for a while it is baulked, but it soon makes a pathway round the obstacle. Or a river will drop out of sight for miles, and presently emerge again broader and grander than ever."
I feel this is a good analogy for what God has been doing in me and my life. I have come against so many barriers through the years and seen many storms from a young age. Through each storm, Jesus kept me afloat, and with each barrier, the Holy Spirit helped me either around it or even better, to plow right through it. In times where I was inches from drowning and I knew the barriers would be overcome with time that had not yet passed... in those times I found security and hope in the arms of my Father, always strong enough to protect me from the lions but gentle enough to speak the tender words of affirmation and healing to my wounded spirit. He gave me hope. From about 16 years of age to 21 I went underground in so many ways. It was a period of time for Him to put me through some fires, to refine, heal, and strengthen me in all the ways I would need before He could send me out into the fullness of my calling.
Will finish this later....
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